In case you haven't noticed, I have been absent for the past week or so. Before I was just really busy. This last week I just haven't been myself. It's taken me a week to break out of this and I think I'm just scratching the surface.
So much has happened in my life in the past year and, more specifically, the past few months. My dad has been sick (pancreatic cancer), and he just has not been feeling well. He went for a PET scan last week and tomorrow, Monday, we find out the results...whether he is clean or there are any tumors. Waiting is the hardest part.
I've always prided myself on being an optimist but lately I've turned into this ginormous pessimist and it is affecting every aspect of my life. When I'm down/blue, then I don't want to do anything. My housework suffers, my cooking suffers, my commitments suffer, my exercise and eating habits suffer.
I've only exercised a few times this past week. I took Thursday and Friday off due to illness, and I took today off due to laziness. In my defense, however, I cleaned my bootay off yesterday, so I was exhausted today. I think since I made myself do all this housework yesterday...and I lurve how my house looks when it's clean...I'm ready to break out of this mini-depression episode.
Sorry about the bummer post but I didn't want to go another day without an update from me. Thanks for reading. *Ü*